I got this line, "End of an era", from Friends (naturally), but it actually fits today. I'm up late, looking at my room that I need to finish cleaning, and at the piles of clothes I need to fold and put in my duffle bag. Today I will be leaving to my cousins house to start school soon and begin a new aspect of life. LOL I know its not like this is the "end" or somehow I will never return home, but its a big difference in my life. One profound thing that is going to change is my time with one of my closest friends, Ryan. For the past two years, me and him have gone through a lot of rough times, and through it all we became closer than we ever have in the 17 years that we've known each other. I remember a year ago, how we watched the first 6 seasons of friends in 2 and a half weeks! We hung out AAALL the time! We shared so many laughs and came up with the dumbest games that would only make us laugh all the more! Such great memories. Obviously, now that he has been working the past few months, our "hanging out time" has dwindled, but yet we would always make time to be "Ryan and Jeremiah". haha. That's who we were, "Ryan and Jeremiah". Now its the end of an era and we are growing up. We won't have time to do that stuff anymore. What I mean by that, is there won't be three month periods where we hang out EVERY night and watch TV and think of lame games that only we find funny. With my other friends, I have been use to having "increments" of time with them. But with Ryan, I have had 17 years of hanging out all the time. He's closer than a brother to me.
I never thought it would hurt so much.
Ryan, my brother, thanks for always being there for me. I couldn't have done it without you. You are a true friend. I love you man.
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that is deep dude. what you now look at as the end you will someday look back upon as the beginning,
toby
Ryan, bro, I know you may never see this because I am adding this comment on February 3rd, 2008, but I just needed to add one more thing:
Here it is, a few years later after I wrote this post, I'm married, living in Southern California and my friendship with you has somehow blossomed even more since then. I know there are still a thousand "roads" ahead of us, but I can't help but say the thing I tell you so often, you are the best friend I have ever had. God bless you always, my brother!
Ryan, well its March 30th, 2009 and we have been through a lot this past year haven't we? Our "BIG talk" at the Big Bear restaurant and the Damian and Annie issue. All in all, as always, we are here stronger than ever.
I love you my brother. Keep going after your dream! I am here for you all the way!
Ryan. It's February 9th, 2010. This past year has truly been a tragic one for us. You know what has happened. My heart has been broken over and over again due to the things that have transpired. Especially now, after looking over these previous posts, it breaks my heart even more to see where things are now.
I have told you a million times and I don't care if you don't believe me because I know its true. I will always love you as a dear friend. You are still my ambassador of kwan. I hope and pray that one day our friendship will be the glory it once was. This might be the last note I write on this post. If it must be, know I will always miss you my brother. And know that I am STILL always here for you.
Good-bye.
Ryan, it's March 6th, 2011. I felt that it was necessary to post one last time, since we have found "peace" between us this past year. Our differences have been able to be worked out. And for this, I am forever grateful. Our friendship is obviously not what it used to be. But that is life, is it not? Hopefully, given enough time, we will naturally build our friendship into a much stronger one. I do not know what is in store for us in the future, but despite all that has transpired, I am glad we can both say to each other, "I love you man".
I intentionally sought out this post as, for some reason, I recalled I left a bit of a diary here in the comment section.
Well allow me to truly make one last update:
Ryan, it's August 27, 2018. Since 2014 our friendship got connected back together thanks to you reaching out. And noticing the last date I posted, I can't believe we had estrangement for 3 years!!!
Now I believe we are closer then ever. Our friendship is one of a kind. Very few people can have long time friendships like we have had that spanned from Preschool years to now where we live 3 hours away. Man have we been through a lot. Here we are, mid 30's and we have been friends for 30 years as of this past March. I look forward to our Vegas trip in less then three weeks to celebrate!
I love you brother. You know that.
My Ambassador of Kwan! May God grant us another 30+!
So long blog. This is Jeremiah, signing off.
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